I've been M.I.A.

Many apologies for not responding to comments/reading your blogs/updating. I just need a break to figure it all out and I think this blog will have a very big makeover soon. Either that ORRR I'm going to be opening up a new blog aside to this where I will be with a partner. But I will still regularly post here. If you guys could be awesome and support the other blog that would do wonders for me and I'd love you further more. The other blog will feature so many fun fashion things :), it's very exciting. !!! .

Changes Are a Coming :)

Sorry I've gone missing for a bit. I've just been re-thinking things. The past few weeks have gone splendid and dandy so let's knock on wood, please. I recently met up with Caitlin from Smile Like you Mean it. To my surprise it was so much more than I expected. Now being me, I can easily make situations awkward although I'm told it is more of a cute awkward than annoying awkward. Point for me? Moving on, our meeting was filled with non stop chatter and laughs. Which was really nice, I needed something like that badly. So thank you Caitlin!

Now! A treat for all of you, I hope. For all of you that read this, thank you a lot. Really. I don't know if you guys understand how much I appreciate all your comments. I was also looking and my blog feels a little all over the place. Which is fine, I like chaos, I'm attracted to it in the worst way possible. I think I'd like to give it more of a focus though. So for now, the party posts will stop. But I'll post pictures of my adventures and you guys can decipher my night ;) instead.

I'm getting a hold of a camera soon and with that I will do make over like posts. I usually take friends shopping and I've been known to push people's limits when it comes to clothes. Why not? I've learned that most of the time people actually love "weird" things. They just need a push here and there and someone to go, that looks awesome (unless it doesn't!).

I'll also be hopefully teaming up with some friends. The ones I know of so far are Bailey and Leah.

Bailey and I plan on going down to State Street (downtown Madison) and finding interesting people to take a picture of and ask some questions. A satorialist type of thing, just with like a mini interview attached. The idea was made during lunch just the other day. So I hope to get that started soon.

Leah and I are thinking of doing at DIY type of deal. There will be a tumblr for it and I'll also post it here.

-Sweatshirt
-Tee shirts
-Plush dolls

those are the few ideas we have so far but I'm thinking we can go far.

Also I'll be doing lots more interviews.

I'm kind of really super excited.

I HAZ A MUSTACHE?!

"There is no use trying," said Alice; "one can't believe impossible things."

"I dare say you haven't had much practice," said the Queen. "When I was your age, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfest."

IT TAKES ALL THE RUNNING YOU CAN DO TO KEEP IN THE SAME PLACE.



I can't even begin to describe my weekend. I was a boy scout for Halloween (pictures later)

Let us sum it up: Party, Boy Scout, Old friends, Awkward, New friends, Model, Hats, Guilt, A little white lady, Kisses, Hugs, A few beds with laughter, Good music, New clothes, Dress up, Cute people, Disaster, Sad boy scout, Sleepover, A piano, A decision to head to New York for spring break, Audrey Hepburn, zombies, Fabulous things.

ohhh boy. Hope you all had fun.

Fedora; H&M

Confessions and Discoveries of the World and I

Confessions and Discoveries of the World and I
Sometimes I like to play pretend.
I like to run in place.
I miss the way smoke hugged me that day and curled around me like a snake.
I like to lie when I don't have too.
I dream of going to the moon and wearing a sombrero.
A Bright Red Scream is the title of a book--
Where people talk of self-mutilation
The lesson learned: its not about wanting death but rather remembering to live, I guess.
Some people feel like they belong in castles.
Childhood memories are often found in food.
I like it when you say my name.
I tell my clothes I love them and whisper to them secrets...
Oh dear am I insane?
Someone once told me, everything happens for a reason.
Or was it, Jesus has everything planned out for us?
Even tragedies?
I remember a girl full of joy yelling, life is what you make it!
Yet despite it all, I still like to indulge in my horoscope, let the galaxy play out my life.
I sit here at 2:03 a.m.
I hear that loves is a scary thing.
And what does that make hate?
Isn't it funny how people change...
Once upon a time: you look in the mirror and can't believe who you've become.
My mother always told me, be careful who you judge because you may be them some day.
I look at magazines and wonder about fame.
I read a book and wear a cardigan...are all of us the same?
I kissed the same gender once and thought of polar bears.
We're all so insecure and fight so hard to laugh it off.
I kissed the opposite gender once and thought about the inner lives of butterflies.
I make my bed and fold my clothes and close my eyes.
My aunt she cries because I told her all about it taking advantage of I.
If you promise not to tell, I'll fill you in on how I let alcohol travel my veins.
I'm young and alive and could say that time is on my side.
I pretend I know so much. But? Really. I don't.
My favorite color is seafoam green and I sing way out of key.
Eventually everything blends.
Fuck you.
Maybe that's why I like shiny things?

--Christian Castillo

Poem I've been working on. Any lines I should take out? Critiques are good! Comments are fun too. The two pictures is me messing around with my friend Leah's camera. Ugh I don't know why they look so shitty on here (quality) hm. What do you think?

Where are all the classy people, All I see is trashy people....

Blaire Waldorf is my new obsession ^^^

Where there is a Blaire, there is a Serena^ I'm aware she looks nothing like Serena. Thanks.

^^The Red Head beauty, Stepahani who I have fallen for <3

What a reckless weekend.
I was reminded that even though, yes, I might sit alone during lunch. I do it, because it's an aware choice I am making.
I can deal with fake to an extent in fact I can act right along. But lately I haven't been up to par. So I sit alone and eat and think and enjoy and when I have lunch with others well that's fun too.
I just have to reminds myself that outside this whole 'High School' thing I have amazing friends.
I'm so glad I've met all these people.
Like a recent text I read from the website textsfromlastnight.com--
(740): Someone told me that drinking would get me no where in life. Drinking has gotten me everywhere in life.
Here come the alcoholic comments. But really, I've met too many cool people. Like Blaire who I call Blaire Waldorf, or Ashley the cute black girl with big hair, or Stephanie the adorable redhead, or Lindsey a hot chick comparable to Kat Von D, and the list goes on.
And being reminded all of this just brightens everything up because as I look around school I realize how much the class I'm graduating with sucks.

And if you cared to know drunk people love hipster glasses. Well, drunk people pretty much love anything. But hipster glasses are a big hit, as are sombreros and shiny things. And as for the title of this post? Blaire and I went around singing it to who we thought were trashy people.

Keep it classy bitches. xoxo.

This is not a love story, This is a story about love

Summer is probably one of my favorite characters. I love everything about her. I think it's because she reminds me of myself. And I've definetely been right where she is. It reminded me that I wasn't alone in how I thought, and well, that can be a nice feeling. The ending was mind boggling and I love it. So much. I went to see this movie twice and I just can't wait for it to come out on DVD so I can watch it over and over and over.

"Honey, I don't know how to tell you this. But...there's a Japanese family in our bathroom."

Color my life with the chaos of trouble

Let this be our little secret

--passion pit ^ (Little Secret) great song.

(gotten a haircut since. much much better.)

If you think too much about anything eventually everything becomes meaningless.

I don't remember where this came from. Maybe a movie, or perhaps a book. I could have heard it in passing. A dream? It could even be possible this thought just stumbled upon me on it's own. Regardless, it's going to be paired along with my few other favorite quotes.

I know this feeling because it wasn't too long ago that I decided I hated the world. I got to thinking how maybe I should pay attention in school and do my homework and oh I don't know, care? But I don't. Because, it's not who I am (WOAH step back: I care about friends and family and readers :) etc. I'm talking about school) I feel that "I have bigger fish to fry" and trust me when I tell you I'm not trying to be a mysterious intellectual being. Because I know where I stand even if I do sway every now and then.

So I thought and I thought and I thought and thought some more about how pathetic I am and after a while I was like, "what are you doing? Stop. Shut up, you sound like an annoying whiny teenager." who knows maybe it's cause I am? Point is. I hate being a Debbie Downer and while I still (oh god this is starting to sound like my last post) have a lot to learn, I'm contempt here for now although I could always use a trip to NY.

(My precious cousin, Celina. She already has a deep found love for BlackBerry/iPhone/(to-be-texting-queen!)/Hipster Glasses/Clothes)

and I know I'm still to young and such but I just wanted to get this all out.

And, I'm happy and if anything I want everyone to know that as far as I know, we aren't here for any reason, us humans. So get up and do what you want to do.

For me? That's clothes. And I don't care if that sounds materialistic I'm never more happy than when I'm surrounded by clothes. I could spend a day trying on different outfits and dressing people and spend HOURS in a store. As long as I'm surrounded by clothes, I feel an infinite happiness. Weird? I don't care.

Also, just a quick thank you to all you readers :) honestly your comments make my day. If you guys have any suggestions on a topic you'd like to write about or something you'd like for me to review. I'll gladly do so. Questions/whatever I'll take :) christian1727@live.com email me or leave a comment.

Lots of love,

'The adorable funny kid with braces' Christian Castillo